S.A. Continued

I've been delaying telling this story mostly because I just feel bad about how it all played out. After my s.a. (as we pretty much only call him) came forward we started talking on a more consistent basis on communicator (work instant messaging). He also gave me his number and there was minor texting. After about a week of talking, he asked me out on a date. I was very weary of of the whole situation, so I made up an excuse that I was trying to hook up my friend with my roommate. I immediately texted my friend and roommate and made plans, so technically I wasn't lying in the end. But my s.a. bounced back quickly and tried again for the next weekend. After a lot of thinking I finally agreed and figured I would give him once chance.

A little side note, the notes on my desk continued with added candies or once a Mickey magnet.

As the day approached of the first date, I couldn't decide if this was a good idea, if I should back out or how I should even feel. I was enjoying our little chats, but a whole night of talking seemed like a lot of time to fill. To make matters more concerning, he also wanted what we were doing to be surprise, so I really had no idea what to expect. My coworkers who had been following the whole situation made jokes and tried to freak me out the day of the date, but there was no turning back now.

He picked me up after work and we ended up going to a Mexican restaurant named Chevys. The conversation was pretty easy since we were still getting the basic questions out of the way. The best part about this date was I had no interest in him so I really had no problem being myself and not trying to hold back like I would if I really liked a guy. After dinner we went to downtown Disney and just walked around and talked. I didn't realize the talking would come so naturally and so by the end of the date I knew I would go out with him again, if asked.

Of course he did ask and we had another enjoyable date with one downfall, we ended up kissing and I really didn't enjoy it. From then on the whole situation became a burden. He was such a nice person always leaving presents on my desk, talking with me on communicator and texting. Sometimes we even talked on the phone. But I knew very quickly I had no interest in continuing.

My coworkers always had a blast mocking the situation and putting in there two cents. But at the end of the day I was just delaying the end. The day I decided the situation could not go on any longer I walked I to work to find a snow globe on my desk. (Mind you my desk also had a notepad and movie passes left within the last week). As we began our typical conversing on communicator I knew I had no choice but to end this today, the question was how. The constant debate between coworkers was if I should do it in person, over text or phone call, or being the most cold and do it over communicator. However I was left little options when he started attempting to make plans for the weekend. I decided to just take out the cop out way and end it during work.

I felt horrible about the whole situation, he was a seriously nice person. I also had the serious argument on what I should do with the presents. I felt it to be a lose lose situation either way I looked it. I felt it was a slap in the face either way. So in the end, I kept them. I still consider putting them on his desk when I have my last day the end of march, but we will see.

This was probably one of the better more drawn out guys I met at work stories and also the one I truly felt bad about. We still talk occasionally and my coworkers love to tease he is in love with me, but at this point there have been no attempts to hang out and everything is back to normal.